Tim Torkildson's Clown Alley

Friday, April 14, 2023

Oatmeal

Children forced to eat oatmeal

tend to see things as surreal.

Children who are given kale

never go beyond small scale.

Deprived of sugar, children grow

morose and wind up on skid row.

Child abuse, it seems to me

is making kids eat too healthy.

Thursday, April 13, 2023

Leaks and other stuff

All you hear about are leaks.

They're the only news for weeks.

The Pentagon or some big wheel

loses documents piecemeal.

Then the docs go viral and

wind up on the old newsstand.

How about instead we read

how to live on chicken feed?

Tuesday, April 4, 2023

Prose Poem: The Frugalman. (Dedicated to Lauren Weber of the Wall Street Journal)

They call me the Frugalman. And I'll be mighty happy to tell you why. Pleased as punch. Pickled tink, in fact! See, I started out life as a luftmensch, then progressed to a schlemiel, then finally hit upon the idea of resizing myself like a tailor would with an old coat, to become the world-renowned Frugalman. My motto became: ANYTHING TO SAVE A BUCK. I had it tattooed on my forehead. To save the expense of printing up business cards. At first not many people were interested in my new personal brand. But all that changed when I bought an old apartment building and began tearing it down to get at the used razor blades. See, years ago, when they first introduced safety razors, the disposable stainless steel blades became a safety hazard. If you threw them in the trash they'd fall out and slit open a wrist or slice off a nose. So it became standard procedure to build into the back of medicine chests in bathrooms a slit for the safety blades. Once done with a blade, the man just slid it into the slot and forgot about it. Like mailing a letter. The blade fell harmlessly into the space between the lathe plaster walls. And there was enough space between the walls to hold tens of thousands of used razor blades. Where they sat gathering dust, doing nobody any good. Until I, the Frugalman, got the bright idea to buy old apartment buildings to tear down. To get at the blades and sell them. Those old blades made by Gillette and Wilkinson Sword were made of the highest grade metals. They're worth a bundle now. Worth tearing down a decrepit building to get at. Plus, I'll never have to pay for my own razor blades again. Boy, the publicity I got from that stunt was tremendous! Of course it was mostly about the poor dispossessed tenants I had to throw out. But hey, today you won't find anyone else out there who claims to be the Frugalman. Mostly because it's too dangerous. I have to live in my car. Maybe I'd better take the "Frugalman" sign off the side of it . . .

Sunday, April 2, 2023

Confessions of a Birthday Party Clown.

Memories of a birthday party clown

I’ve been writing limericks all morning, just to get that tawdry itch out of my system. Now i’m ready to tackle something more serious – my memories of doing birthday parties as a clown. What i remember is a mixture of the mundane and miraculous.

I came home to minneapolis the winter of 1973/74 a physical wreck from my time spent in mexico studying pantomime with sigfrido aguilar. I had caught some kind of bug that disrupted my innards to the point where each meal was a prelude to an agonized and extended stay in the banyo. I recuperated at my parent’s house, gradually regaining control over my bowels. Once i was up and running again I planned to rejoin sigfrido’s mime troop on their world tour. But one vibrant spring day, as the robins pulled fat earthworms from the sodden green grass and the sparkling blue sky was swept by wisps of blinding white clouds, i idly opened the ensign magazine and was immediately galvanized by an article by President Spencer W. Kimbal – “Every Young Man a Missionary.” his ringling declaration of the duty of every young man in the church to serve a mission hit me like a two-by-four on the side of the head. I knew i had to get ready to go on a mission, not cavort around the globe with sigfrido’s merry andrews.

But where was the money to go on a two year mission to come from? I had about a hundred bucks in the bank and was living on the cuff with the folks. When i reported to my branch president Lewis Church my willingness to serve, he gave me the financial facts of life – i had to have five thousand dollars salted away in the bank to qualify for a mission call. Provided i met all the other requirements as well.

Jobs were as scarce as irish rabbis back then. When i reported my lack of gainful employment to president church he said “Tim, why don’t you work as a birthday party clown?”

“Huh?” I replied brilliantly.

Quick as a wink president church outlined a poster on a sheet of white copy paper with a magic marker that extolled my virtues as a children’s entertainer, including my phone number at the bottom. Disregarding church policy about making copies for private purposes, he used the library copier to run me off a hundred birthday clown posters to put up all around town. Which i immediately began doing.

Up in prospect park i taped a poster to a pole outside a big ornate victorian house and was invited inside by its owner – the young widow of John Berryman the poet. She hired me to perform at her 8 year old daughter’s party. I don’t remember her name, but i bless that widow’s memory because she invited a friend of hers to the party. A reporter for the minneapolis star newspaper. The reporter interviewed me extensively, brought a photographer along, and even agreed to print my phone number in her story. It ran on a saturday and my parent’s phone began ringing like mad.

Hurray! Suddenly i had all the birthday party work i could handle. i even spent a week at paul bunyan land up in brainerd.

But alas, since i didn’t drive or own a car, i hit on what i considered a brilliant business gambit. I told prospective clients that my car was in the garage and if they would come pick me up and bring me home i would give them a fifty percent discount. And since i only charged twenty dollars per party (and a party could go on for hours and hours) i was only averaging about ten bucks a day. It would take a long time to build my bank account up to five thousand smackeroos that way.

But then another miracle happened. My old circus pal steve smith, with whom i had studied pantomime down in mexico, called me up with good news. He had negotiated a deal with the ringling circus owner, irvin feld, to do the advance clowning for the show – traveling ahead of the show to perform at schools, hospitals, libraries, and be on radio, tv, and interviewed by reporters for newspapers. Good old Smith immediately thought of me, he told me, after he signed the deal, and asked old man Feld if he wanted an advance clown team. Feld said sure, so smith selflessly created the immortal clown team of T.J. Tatters and Dusty. (My official ringling clown name was dusty.)

My salary from that job was enough to fill my coffers down at the farmers and mechanics savings bank in minneapolis with the requisite five thousand.

But all that ensued as advance clown is a tale for another day. I want to back up to the nuts and bolts of being a birthday party clown. Or at least what i can dredge up from a faltering memory that sputters and goes out like a campfire in a simoom.

I did balloon animals. Without a balloon pump. I blew those suckers up one at a time and tied them into dogs, giraffes, and swords for the ravenous little nippers until my fingers grew as stiff and brittle as spaghetti pasta. I quickly learned that kids, when given a fragile balloon sculpture, do not cherish it but stomp on it and bite it until it pops, and then come crying back to me demanding another one. And another one. And another one.

The birthday party clown has to eat a large piece of birthday cake or the birthday child feels slighted. You might think that would be pleasant. And the first dozen times it is – but after that the cloying sweetness got to me and i managed to make my piece of cake ‘disappear’ by covering it with a napkin and then smashing it with the flat of my hand. Hey, i was a clown – i could get away with anything.

I could juggle. Just barely. When i dropped one of my expensive solid rubber lacrosse balls (what all professional jugglers use) i had to scramble like lightning to get it back before one of the kids would grab it and run away with it like a jack rabbit. Children firmly believe that anything a clown drops is a party favor and now belongs to them.

I played my musical saw, getting the kids to sing ‘happy birthday to you.’ the adults at the party were fascinated by my saw and requested many an encore, but the kids couldn’t see what all the fuss was about. After one or two songs they’d begin to wander away, looting the kitchen and pouring koolaid on the persian carpets.

I tried doing magic but there is always one child who feels compelled to yell at the top of their lungs ‘it’s a fake!’ so i’d go back to making more balloon animals.

I had a routine with a golf club and marshmallows which usually went over well. But once the kids got ahold of something as sticky and malleable as a marshmallow they’d start a shooting war with each other. The marshmallows wound up on the drapes and stuck to the ceiling.

All in all, i’d have to say that being a birthday party clown was good training for future parenthood – it showed me plainly how capricious and treacherous children could be. The lovable side of a child rarely appears during the selfish gluttony of their own birthday party.

I still get offers to do birthday parties from time to time today. I always reply with a bland yet predatory smile that i would be glad to make a brief appearance at the child’s party. For the paltry sum of five hundred dollars. So far, thank heavens, i’ve had no takers.

Sunday, March 26, 2023

Prose Poem: The Light at the Start of the Tunnel. (Dedicated to William Wan.)

My doctor tells me to avoid reading newspapers. He recommends instead I listen to soothing classical music by Brahms, close my eyes, and imagine the news I'd like to read about in the newspaper. Like the end of the Ukraine invasion by Russia. North Korea overthrowing their dictators and becoming a democracy. Abundant rain in the Sub Sahara leading to amazing crop harvests that feed everyone and leave enough to export for huge profits. A federal government program that features handouts of free cotton candy. So far it's worked pretty well. My mental health has improved markedly. There are no longer voices in my head telling me that sugar is poison or that Donald Trump is another Caligula. I can smile again. Meet people and shake their hand with a smile and twinkle in my eye. Even use my pressure cooker to make beef stew again -- for the first time since 1995. But I have to confess I miss the feel of newsprint crackling in my fingers as I turn the pages from wars to disasters to Dilbert. Carrying a newspaper on the bus, reading it on a park bench, rolling it up to beat my dog when it soils the carpet -- these are all tactile pleasures I need to replace. So I put rubber bands around my wrist. And snap them whenever I want to buy a copy of the Washington Post. My wrist is black and blue. And I might be developing gangrene -- there's a dark blue line running up my arm that throbs with heat. But at least I'm not obsessing about global warming or living in dread of Alec Baldwin. Only thing I still have trouble with is lying. I don't have a dog. Don't beat it with a newspaper or anything else. In fact I don't have a carpet for it to pee on. No house. No job. I'm homeless, actually. And don't have a doctor. I'm making all this up while sleeping under a layer of newspapers on a park bench. Have you got a quarter?

Friday, March 24, 2023

Prose Poem: Not about cherry blossoms. (Dedicated to Christine Clarridge.)

Leaders of the Floogle Street Gang.

I can watch a piece of grass grow for twenty years. That's why I like to view the invisible blossoms each spring. These are on trees that most people claim have no blossoms. Larches. Yews. Spruce. And redwoods. The scientific community, in their overweening overconfidence, claim that such trees do not flower. And the public seems to accept this balderdash. Since there are no springtime tours to admire the larch blossoms or the redwood blooms. Not like those upstart cherry trees. They get all the attention. Which they hardly deserve. But I won't get started on that . . .

The larch blossom, it's true, is extremely small and dull. It looks like a grey pimple on the larch branch. And when it is done blooming (just two short hours) it starts to drip a black tarry liquid that can stain the windshield of your car. Still, it's a blossom and deserves some respect for being just that. Not every blossom is a show stopper; not every bloom is a work of art. Which doesn't mean we should ignore or denigrate those more modest unspectacular flowerings. I've always admired the way the redwood blooms. It sends out a thin green finger, about 200 feet above ground, which gradually turns into a tiny octopus-shaped translucent flower. Which turns to powder during the night and blows away. It smells awful. Like burnt popcorn. But I think there's a need for people to see these disappointments of nature, so to speak. People should be forced to go on tours of larch forests and stands of redwood in the early spring, when it's still damp and cold and muddy, to view these tiny things with telescopes and magnifying glasses. The federal government should get involved. But I won't get started on that . . .

Thursday, March 23, 2023

Prose Poem: Sarah Maslin Nir Loves Horses.

I want to be very careful what I write here. Because horses are very sensitive and high strung creatures. If you write about them the wrong way they come down with the bots. So I must be careful with my words. Journalists, on the other hand, don't give a hoot in Hades what you write about them. They enjoy the give and take of a good verbal tussle. At least I hope they do. Because I want to tell you about a particular reporter who loves horses. All horses. Black ones. Clydesdales. Mustangs. Ponies. Cobs. Appaloosa. Studs and mares and yearlings. But other than horses Sarah Maslin Nir doesn't exhibit extravagant love for much else. Not having met her, and only having read some of her stuff, I'd guess she puts all her passion into her reporting. Which leaves her a little stunted in her dealings with editors, publishers, the general public, and encyclopedia salespeople. With her family, I don't know. I won't guess. Family dynamics are a subject that would stump Einstein and Socrates alike. In my family . . . well, in my family no one likes pickled herring but me. And that has caused a lot of heartache. I'll tell you about it if you'll meet me at the Swedish Corner Smorgasbord in Torrance, CA, next Shichigosan weekend. But we know that Ms Nir dotes on horses. Because the very last line of her New York Times official biography reads: "She loves horses."

Any woman who loves horses can't be all bad. Not that I'm saying she's bad in any way. I'm just riffing on an old Hollywood quote about W.C. Fields and . . . oh well, I'm drifting way off base here. In fact this whole piece has gotten away from me. Pickled herring and Socrates, indeed! I've failed in my intention to present an interesting piece of writing about Sarah Maslin Nir or horses or anything else. I just hope the horses won't take my blather too much to heart. They are beautiful, noble creatures who ought to rule over us as the Houyhnhnm once did.

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I am away on my book tour for my new kids' book The Flying Horse until May 1. Please enjoy your copy and contact me regarding NYTimes business upon my return.

Best,

SMN

Sarah Nir

8:52 AM (1 minute ago)

to me

Sunday, March 19, 2023

Janteloven

Janteloven is alive and well in Valley Villa. Provo. Utah.

Let me introduce you to a Norwegian concept that I studied at the University of Minnesota some thirty years ago.

It was created by Norwegian/Danish author Aksel Sandemose. It is called “The Laws of Jante,” or in Norwegian, “Janteloven.”

These so-called social laws are how small-town Norwegians govern their own existence and the existence of others:

You're not to think you are anything special
You're not to think you are as good as we are
You're not to think you are smarter than we are
You're not to convince yourself that you are better than we are
You're not to think you know more than we do
You're not to think you are more important than we are
You're not to think you are good at anything
You're not to laugh at us
You're not to think anyone cares about you
You're not to think you can teach us anything

I’m here to tell you, friends, that this noxious mindset is alive and well here in our apartment building, Valley Villa.

Just this morning, this Sabbath morning, I opened our patio blinds to find a large stuffed animal had been disemboweled on our patio – the fluff was scattered around our patio, and even stuffed inside our empty flower pots. There was not a shred of anything on adjoining ground floor patios. I don’t believe it was an animal who did this randomly. Not when so much of the stuffing was planted in our flower pots. Some person or persons unknown deliberately did this to us.

That is only the latest petty piece of personal insult that has been offered us.

Previously when we have shared haiku poetry on our storage room door it has been defaced and anonymous hateful communications have been put up on our storage room door deriding our poetic efforts and telling us to give up and get out.

In the past anonymous persons have gone to the Valley Villa office to complain of our various, and spurious, infractions of the building rules. And we have gotten warning letters from the building management based on these false reports.

I have never hidden the fact that I spent most of my adult life as a professional circus clown. I’m proud of it. But some people are very uncomfortable about my past, and have told me so right in the building lobby.

As many of you know Amy and I delight in cooking large nutritious meals and then offering them for free to our friends and neighbors here at Valley Villa. We enjoy sharing God’s bounty with others. But we are saddened that some people have gone about spreading rumors that our food is tainted, even poisoned. We have heard it said that we are charging money and making a profit on our free community meals. We are not. And never have. And never will.

It seems obvious to me that because Amy and I express our creativity openly and often in many different ways (including my latest creation of “Poet for Rent”) and because we have a very special and vibrant love story that is probably unmatched in the annals of Church history, mean and petty minds have decided we are persona non grata here at Valley Villa. We don’t fit in. And should be encouraged to either keep quiet and learn our place or leave.

Well, I, for one, would be glad to leave. In fact, I will be making inquiries on how to get a mortgage on a small house where Amy and I can live without any further mean-spirited persecution from our pygmy neighbors. Lacking that, we will be looking at other apartment buildings to move into. The bottom line is that I, personally, want to get the hell out of this despotic, narrow-minded, warehouse for simpletons and the narrow-minded.

Having said all that, I must add that we have received some gracious and gratifying messages from a few of our neighbors here at Valley Villa from time to time. I do not wish to discount them. But that does not alter the fact that I want to take Amy and I somewhere free of Janteloven. I am willing to admit that perhaps the Lord wants us to stay on here at Valley Villa, doing what good we can. But honestly, I’m gonna need a pretty clear sign from heaven to believe that. Amy says it more succinctly, and faithfully: “If we’re meant to leave here we will find a way to finance it. If not, then the Lord means for us to stay.”

Amen.

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I have received numerous posts in response to the above Janteloven personal essay. Here they are, verbatim:

So sorry to hear you have been treated so horribly. As we all know, that jealous people and those that have sad lives, enjoy making others suffer. The building I live in, Cascade Gardens has had It's share of rumors, etc.

I have enjoyed reading your poetry and the different meals you prepare each day. Because of my situation, I'm not able to come enjoy the meals as I would like to.

I pray that God guides you to find a home that he knows is the right fit for you.

He has guided me to find a place that will be shared with my youngest daughter because she is having a hard time paying rent because of circumstances that have made financial obligations hard to pay.

As we both know, God will always take care of you.

My heart was warmed to hear of how you and Amy got back together.

Whoa, Samson, I do not feel I should be included in the simpleton or narrow minded category. You know I do not leave my apartment not only because I really cannot, but, because I do not want to be included in the annals of the foyer gossips, those fountains of misinformation. I am grateful for the food you make that is sent my way, though, sometimes I do want to give you a few of my cookbooks. (Have to get rid of them before I die as my kids do not want them and have told me they will end up being thrown away, that breaks my heart, so if you want some, come get them). I am sorry you are feeling the brunt of this, but, remember, nearly everyone here lives alone and has nothing to do but gossip and talk, I do believe that if there were things to do here, that this might put a large dent in the chatter. There is no bingo, community dance

Sorry to hear you are having problems with your neighbors!

Makes living there hard, hope you find a friendly place to live.

Billy

Dear Tim and Amy:

I am deeply pained over the bad treatment you are receiving in your place of residence. At the same time I admire you for the goodness of your lives and your generosity toward others. In my view if you move away the ill willed folks win. Hang in there! Keep on keeping on. Keep being the noble people that you are. Blessings!

LRC

Saturday, March 18, 2023

Prose Poem: Interview with Charles Passy.

I decided I wanted to interview Charles Passy, who writes for the Wall Street Journal. Because I wanted someone interesting to talk to for my blog. I have high hopes for my blog. I'm hoping it will start getting a lot of views and then I will sell it to the highest bidder and retire to Thailand on the money from the sale. You can buy an orchid plant in Thailand for ten baht. So I googled Mr. Passy and got a phone number in, of all places, Texas. I figured he had a vacation home there. So I dialed the number. "Jefferson Jimplecute" said a lady's voice. "Come again?" I asked. "This is the Jefferson Jimplecute newspaper, sir" she replied patiently. "How can I help you." "Um, I'd like to talk to Charles Passy, please?" I told her uncertainly. "Just a minute" she said. She came back a minute later: "He's out delivering the paper right now, can I get your number so's he can call you right back?" I was puzzled. "I'm looking for the Charles Passy who writes for the Wall Street Journal?" I told her desperately. "Oh him" she replied. "He don't work here, honey. Our Charles Passy is just a local boy who works part-time in the office here. Sorry." "That's okay" I told her. "Thanks." Damn Google, sending me on a wild goose chase. So next I tried calling the Wall Street Journal direct for his phone number. They said he was at his vacation home in Marion County, and they wouldn't give me his number there. They didn't even offer to take a message, the momsers. But I had to find something out, just for my own self-esteem. So I asked "Where's Marion County, anyway?" They told me it was in Texas. So I never got to interview Charles Passy, the one who writes for the Wall Street Journal. I decided instead to call back and interview the Charles Passy, Charlie to his friends, who works in the Jefferson Jimplecute newspaper office. He's a nice kid, but really had nothing important to say. Except that his dad owns a bottle of mescal with a scorpion in it.